Here’s Your Permission Slip to Feel Like Sh*t (and Why It’s the Healthiest Thing You Can Do)

So this one is a bit of an impromptu episode. It is 9 48 PM on Monday, March. What's today? March 10th, 2025. From a numerology perspective, that would mean we are at 310, which is 4, 13. That's my number. The number of the divine feminine, the number that has been misrepresented in our society for a very long time. It's been presented as this unlucky number when really 13 is one of the most sacred divine numbers in existence. You can do some more research on that if you're interested. I'll talk about it more in another episode. And welcome back, masterful listener. This felt like it needed to

be channeled at the moment. So here we are. I was in a bath. I had a rough day. It was a rough day today for me. How about you? I don't know when you're listening to this. I don't even know if I'm going to post it tonight. Maybe, maybe tomorrow, maybe the next day. Maybe I won't post it at all, but probably I will post it because why not share this message? This message was coming in very, very, very clear. And I am committed, as I have always been, for pretty much my entire life, to sharing messages that I used to say were messages of inspiration.

You know, for a very long time, I was first a happiness researcher all throughout my 20s. I was obsessed. I wanted to learn what makes people happy. I learned that I was from the unhappiest country in the world, according to a book, The Geography of Bliss. Shout out to Mr. Eric Wiener. Uh that was fascinating. And of course, searching for happiness led me to inspiration. And then I spent years traveling around the world asking everybody, what inspires you? What inspires you? That was my question a very long time. That led to incredible things. That led to me working on an inspiration campaign, that led to me,

gosh, interviewing thousands of people, having incredible moments, having incredible insights. And it also led me straight into the deepest, darkest night of my soul, a cataclysmic burnout depression that took me under for a good nine months when I feel like that version of me died. And this version of me that has since then been reborn a couple of more times sits with you today. Life is all a cycle of creation and destruction, creation and destruction. At least that is what I have found. I have met with global happiness researchers. Shout out to my peeps, shout out to who you know who you are. I'm not going

to name people, but as a happiness researcher myself, I've had the pleasure of connecting with and collaborating with and studying with and laughing with and crying with some of the world's top researchers in the field of happiness. And one thing that was so surprising and yet wow, not that surprising anymore, that I found we all had in common was that at some point our journey searching for happiness led us into darkness, depression. My own journey to happiness led me into the darkest time of my life where I didn't think I would ever even survive, let alone go back in and in, and in and in again

and again and again. A sort of hero's journey, you could call it. Some say clinical depression, some say psychotic episodes, some say spiritual awakening, shamanic awakening. I say

uh I say you gotta tell yourself the story that feels most supportive for your own path, for your soul, for your growth, for your evolution. And not me nor anybody else can tell you that. But for me, I can tell you, I believe I have gone through a series of awakenings that were so deep, so dark, so profound, that it is often actually hard to find the right words to capture the enormity of what I went through. But one of the things, and the thing that I really felt called in my bath to share tonight, especially right now, with the state of the world, with you,

the listener, and thank you for tuning in to the world's first super rad listening school that you really actually want to go to. That is the point of this show. I am so grateful for everyone who is listening to the show. This show is being listened to all over the world, and it's great. And I set the intention that it finds the ears of exactly who needs this message in this very moment. And I always say the first step to masterful listening is checking in with yourself. Do you really want to be here? Are you really genuinely curious about the topic of wait for it? Wait

for it. You might have seen it in the uh episode title, because by the time you're listening to this, I would have created one. The topic for today is how to feel like crap. Seriously. I think learning how to feel like really bad, like crappy, like to feel like shit, you know, so that when someone asks you, How are you doing? And we're all conditioned to be like, oh, I'm fine, I'm great. And instead, there's certain days and times where you're like, I feel like garbage, I feel horrible. How that is important. That is a life skill. So the irony isn't lost on me. It's radically

poetic, which is the name of my book that is coming out soon, by the way, is that yes, me, Svetlana, the name Svetlana means the light. I was so curious, I was so bright, I have red hair, I always wanted inspiration. Then what happened? I ended up in this deep darkness again and again and again and again. And I would always come out of these times of darkness with new insights, with wisdom, with inspiration, with light. My light kept growing and growing, but it was only after those episodes of me literally feeling like I was swimming through a basement of shit. That is the metaphor that

I give. And it sounds a bit vulgar, but that's how it felt. It felt like one day I was in a house and everything was fine. And then suddenly the floor beneath me just shattered and I fell into a basement that I didn't even know, I didn't know there was a basement in the house. But suddenly there I was, and it was just full of shit. And there I was swimming through shit for so long that, you know, after enough time passes where you feel like crap. And if anyone out there, if you've been depressed, like really depressed, not like people throw that word around a

lot. Oh, I'm so depressed. I'm talking like you cannot get out of your bed, you cannot get dressed, you cannot function type of depression. If you've been in there even for a day, you know what that feels like. It feels like an eternity spent in hell. But if you've been in there for days and weeks, months and years, and you still come out as the light, which that's me. I actually honestly have never met another being who has spent as much time in the kind of darkness that I have and is like, well, but I I'm I know they exist and it's not a competition, right?

And if it but if it was, it's like I don't want to win that one. I just think I happen to have sort of taken one for the cosmic team. Um, I needed to learn the darkness. I needed to understand that it was not so scary. I needed to see that it was the fact that we are unwilling in our society to actually sit in our shit for a while, is why we are still sick. And that is what I want to talk about. So today I'm not gonna be given inspirational talks about how to feel great and how to be inspired, I'm gonna talk about

the importance of feeling like garbage, of letting yourself just feel bad, and how that is actually a very, very, very, very powerful thing. Because if you're constantly running away from your pain, and by the way, my love, your pain is a portal to your power. Let me say that one more time for the people in the back. Your pain, our pain, and let's not compare, okay? This is not the pain Olympics. You got your pain, I got my pain. Everybody has their story. Let's not compare in despair. Let's honor the fact that in everybody's life they have had pain, okay?

And uh our pain, I really do believe, is a portal to our power, but in order to access that, you have to be with it. And what do most of us do? We try to like make go make it go away, you know? And again, I I'm just being super hardcore here now because I honestly I don't even give a shit. I'm I'm letting go of any of my own. Like, oh my God, what do I sound like? Am I offending people? Let me offend people at this point. I think people need to be offended. People need to wake up, wake up, wake up. It's okay

to feel like crap. That's my message. I have a lot of messages out there. Okay, if you listen to the show, I think this is like episode 55. If you know me uh personally, or if you know me just like on the internet or or you've worked with me, you'll know I'm a very real person. I just say it like it is, but I'm especially here. This is like my platform. I'm gonna really say it how it is. I'm not representing any other company, I'm not anyone's coach at the moment. This is me, unfiltered raw Svetlana. And this is really what I want you to know.

It is okay to feel like crap. So if right now, with what's happening on the planet, for whatever reason, whether it's personal or professional or both, or it's the politics, or it's the planet, or it's the weather, or it's your stomach hurts, or whatever, I want to invite you to just consider before you try to self-care it away and feel better. Could you just pause and give yourself a minute or five or ten or a whole day? When was the last time you took a day to just feel like crap? You know, like instead of a self-care day, just like I'm gonna feel like shit day.

I just say that and I'm like so curious how that's landing on whoever is here, if you're still here. Really? Because, you know, this whole obsession with feeling good and being happy is why we have such a sick society. And frankly, I think if you're not a little bit twisted up about some shit that's going on in the world, then that's weird. And now am I promoting everyone go out and feel like garbage all the time? No. What I am saying is that giving yourself some time to not be okay, you will then discover oh, even this is okay. And guess what? If you could be

okay, even when you're not okay, everything is okay. It's all good. So that's the irony, right? In actually embracing feeling like crap for a bit, but really it ceases to have control of you. Okay. I'm gonna share this little story. I do this on the show, and I really invite you to listen. I want you to listen with your full freaking heart. I want you to listen as the being. And I know if you're listening right now, you are some kind of being, and I know you've been in pain. Okay. Listen with an open heart. And maybe you're in pain right now, or maybe you're feeling

great right now. I don't know. Probably if you're listening to this, if you were drawn to this, you're either in some sort of pain or you've been in some sort of pain and you care about helping others in pain. I feel like that's the kind of vibe people I attract. Okay. Or, you know, whoever else you are might be great. Everybody is welcome. As long as you have a sincere desire to be here, cool.

I'm gonna just share this little story. And again, just listen with an open heart. Notice what it's like. Notice if you get distracted, bring yourself back. Remember, we are in listening school. It is such a rare freaking quality these days to truly be listened to. So I am constantly teaching that skill, a reminder. Just that is the most loving thing you could do for people. Just listen to them. Stop waiting for your turn to speak. If you get distracted, come back. Call yourself out. You know, I've done that even in the middle of a coaching call. And I'm very, very, very focused. I am listening to

every word when I am on coaching. But sometimes something might still distract me, and I'll just pause and say, Hey, I'm so sorry, I missed that. Would you repeat that? I really want to make sure I got everything. That is fucking kind. That is, that is, I would so much rather someone tell me, yo, I'm so sorry. I just got distracted. Would you repeat yourself than pretend to have heard something that might have actually been very important for them to hear? And I can tell the difference. So can you. We got to start getting real with people. Okay. I think that radical, authentic sadness and anger

and all those emotions that we make wrong, I think that's way higher vibe than bullshit positivity and joy. I can see right through it, I can feel right through it. Stop pretending. I mean, really, it's okay to feel like crap. This is your permission slip. Oh, 1515 of the show. As I just noticed, I was saying that because again, I'm always powerfully, I'm masterfully listening. I'm paying attention. The world is always speaking. What are you paying attention to? Right. So again, here's this little story. Okay. I just went through a massively traumatic time losing my soul dog rat. If you've been listening to the show, you've

heard some stories about that. Uh, I did a whole very long comedy special a few episodes ago called Sacred and Savage. If you have two and a half hours, listen to that. But I'm just gonna share one short little moment that happened there that reminded me of the power of feeling like crap sometimes and letting yourself just feel your pain. You know, I was an on-again, off again smoker for 20 years, and I always knew that I would stop when I was ready. And I told people to leave me alone about it because, in a way, I believed truly that those cigarettes were helping me more

than they were hurting me. And you know what? When someone looked at my lungs, they were like, oh my God, your lungs look amazing. They look totally clear. Yeah, because I believed so much that those cigarettes were helping me that they did. And if that sounds crazy to you, I would invite you to study some quantum physics, which I'll talk about a little bit later. This is not, by the way, um, an announcement to get people to smoke. This is actually an announcement to get people to believe that the things that you say and believe are very, very, very powerful. Yes, even more powerful than certain

substances can be. I've been using a technology recently that I'm going to be bringing to more people. It is one of the most incredible things I've ever discovered. It is tied to frequency healing, energy healing, something that I very much believe in. I healed my own legs. After I lost rad, I couldn't walk. I lost my ability to walk. Doctors were leading me down a path of believing I might have rheumatoid arthritis, and I knew in my fucking heart that I did not, that it was grief, and that grief can destroy our bodies, that emotions are the reason that we get sick. I felt this a

long time, and I have now proven to myself, so it doesn't matter what anyone says, that I was right. And there's a lot out there, by the way. There's a lot of books you can read about this. Uh, Gabor Mate has a lot of awesome content. I really hope I said his name right. He's incredible. The body keeps the score. I mean, there's so many incredible resources out there for those who want to learn more about the emotional impact on our bodies and on illness. But this one particular story that I want to talk about and how it's so important to just feel your pain and

stop running away from it is this. So I'd been smoking on again and off again for many, many, many years. It started when I lived in Roma in Italy, and it was like cool. It was like a vibe. And I decided, though, when Rad passed and I was in this deep grief that I didn't want to smoke it away. I didn't want to eat it away. I didn't want to distract it away. And my legs literally shut down on me, so I couldn't even walk it away. So I just was gonna sit in it, and so I did. I was in pain every single day for

months and months and months to the point where I really faced never walking again, never dancing again. And this was like a legitimate thing. I mean, I had people perplexed. My body shut down. My inflammation markers were wild. And I knew it was because I had lost the love of my life and my grounding fell away. I didn't know how to even live. I felt like I was on fire every day, literally. I felt like I was being burned alive. I was screaming from the pain. And there was one particular moment where I was sitting late at night alone, and I got really used to my

legs feeling like they were on fire and burning, and then my back went out, and then my neck. So at some point, I could literally barely move my body at all. And every little movement really, really hurt. I had two canes, which I joked became my rapper name, two cane, because um what are what are those things called? The ones you put under your arm. Um, crutches, they really hurt. So I got two canes. So again, everything slowed down. This was my ultimate slowdown. I believe on a spiritual level, truly, I broke my own legs to finally slow me down so I could just sit with

myself. And um, by the way, I've been sitting with myself for years, but this was the deepest part. This was Rad's soul contract with me. If you listen, if you're curious, there's an amazing episode I did with an animal communicator, uh Julie shout out, I love you, you're amazing, where we spoke to Rad, and that's what Rad told me. And I knew it. Rad's soul contract with me was to come in at 37 out of nowhere one day, make me fall in love with him, show me unconditional love. He was my favorite being ever. And then 610 days later, he was gone in the most brutal

way. And so were my legs. And there I sat and sat and sat. And so on this one particular night, everything was already in pain. But I noticed since Rad passed, this was probably like, I don't know, a couple of months after he passed already. My finger on my right hand, the ring finger, had been inflamed. That is, by the way, if you look it up, the finger that is associated with love and relationships, and no wonder it was inflamed. But for some reason, the story in my mind, that one moment was, oh my God, if I lose my, I was like, I'm gonna lose what

if I lose my hand? Oh my god, if and and again, guys, I'm a fucking artist. So for me, losing my legs and not walking was tragic. Not dancing, oh, that was a big one. But my finger, the idea that I would not have a hand to write with or draw with or create with was so horrible that I Started spinning out and then it was like this amazing feeling of I caught it, and I was like, Oh, that's a thought. That's a thought. It's just a thought. You're fine. Your finger's fine. You're cool. And boom, I was back. It was like this massive, I call

it a shit spiral, where it's like, oh my God, well, what's wrong with my finger? Oh my God, but what if I lose it? Then I lose my hand. Oh my God, but then I'll never draw again. Oh my God. The way to stop a shit spiral is first of all to acknowledge you're in one. And then just be with that. You know what I did? And here's your exercise, okay? If you're afraid, a lot of people out there are afraid to feel bad. I think I've heard this a lot. Well, I'm afraid that if I let myself feel bad, I'll just get stuck in it

forever. No, you won't. You might get stuck in there a little while because you need to be, because you've been running from your own damn self your whole life. So let's just pause. You know, the faster you run, the greater your shadow. But as soon as you just turn around and you just face it, I once had that visual. I was running away. I was very scared. And then I turned around into this like alleyway, and this massive monster that I was so afraid of was literally this little girl, little me, standing there, just shaking, afraid, needing someone to just give her a freaking hug. And

there I was running away from her, terrified. She just needed some love. So, you, whoever you are out there, whether you're 60 or 30 or 12, it doesn't matter. We all have an inner child in us, and those inner children need love. And instead, we've been conditioned in this world to first of all not give ourselves, I think, real love, but real love, what does that even mean? To me, when I mean that, I mean like, yes, it's nice to like take a bath and get yourself a treat and eat something good if you don't feel good. Yes, and also real love is tough love sometimes,

too. And real love sometimes also means facing yourself when you feel like crap and just sitting in it and not going to yoga right away, and not um talking it away with 30 million people over and over again, but just sitting with it and not going to the kitchen and shoving a bunch of shit in your mouth or drinking it or smoking it. And again, I want to be clear, I have done all these things, and if that's helping you, cool. But if you keep running away from just sitting with your own self, if you're so terrified of that, I just want to say it's not

as scary as you think. So here's a way to do that, okay? First, it's incredible how just like taking a deep breath in a moment of overwhelm is so so so helpful. There's something called box breathing. It's when you inhale for four, hold for four, exhale for four, and hold for four. Let's do it now.

Inhale for one, two, three, four, and hold two, three, four, exhale, two, three, four, hold, two, three, four. Pause this right now and do that a couple of times if you want.

Just breathing is very helpful. And I know this sounds so obvious, but seriously, if I could teach children two things, it would be how to breathe and how to listen. So I'm doing both because we're all children and I'm teaching myself that. I did it tonight. Wow, what a wavy day today was, but I know how to feel like crap and I know how to ride. I'm a big wave emotional surfer. I do not pretend I'm well, I just feel crappy sometimes. And really, I think that's why I have tapped into an even more radiant light because I'm not pretending anything. I'm just being. And sometimes

you feel bad, you feel sad, you feel angry, you feel frustrated, you feel jealous, whatever. You're human right now. I believe we are spiritual beings in a human experience. That stuff might still come up. And the kindest, most loving, most sacred and savage, rad thing to do is just feel your feelings and stop pretending they're not real. And if it helps you to go to yoga, great. I'm not talking shit about yoga, by the way. I am in fact a yoga instructor. Yes. But do you know how many times I saw people go into all the classes, do the yoga, drink the green juice, and they're

still running around stressed as hell because they're not actually giving themselves some time to just be with that stuff. Just sit with it. So here's what I did that night. I noticed I was having some thoughts in my head. Like the thought of, oh my gosh, I'm gonna lose my hand. Which right now I say, I'm like, wow, that seems like such a silly thought. But at the time, it actually felt like a very legitimate fear. Here, my hand has been inflamed. I'm in pain for months. I can't walk. I'm already facing that. Maybe I have an autoimmune disease because that was um sprinkled into my

awareness, which by the way, shame on all the people out there, shame on all the people in the fucking medical space who sprinkle in potential very scary diagnoses for people before they've taken the time to understand what is happening in people's emotional lives. Seriously, shame on you. Wake up. If you're listening to this and you're a healthcare practitioner and you don't take time to get to understand a little bit more about your patient before you start diagnosing them with shit, stop it. Pause. I have basically become a doctor at this point. It's all connected to our emotions. Emotional regulation is now being said is the number

one trait of a leader, of a good manager. And most people can't even regulate the little puddle of emotions that they have, let alone the wide, vast ocean of emotions that exists with all the various humans and intricacies and the multi-dimensionality of the business landscape. And I know this because I've been an executive coach now for 15 years and I've been in the business world as well. The point is that I'm not saying regulating emotions is easy, but I'm saying it's what it's all about. It's very important. And we have to be very, very, very careful with the labels and the diagnoses that we plaster onto

shit so fast that really screws people up. For some people, maybe a label and a diagnosis can help. I've met those people and I respect that. For a lot of people, it plants a very scary thing in their mind, and that is the worst thing you could do for your health. Everything is in our mind. And I am a mental wealth advocate, and I will be fierce about that. So seriously, stop it. Wake up, start paying attention to your emotions. How are you feeling? I have some other exercises. Look through the other episodes all over this podcast. There's different, there's how to turn a shit spiral

into a love loop. It's a great episode. How to lose your shit and find yourself. Again, I've been talking about this shit for a long time, but I needed to take a moment right now, today, in this moment, after I had a hard day and I just let myself ride the waves of feeling like crap. And then suddenly I was like, oh my gosh, this is it. Which I've said a lot too throughout the years. My company's called This Is It Enterprises, but this really is it. I think it's more important right now for me to put out a message saying, feel like crap. It's okay.

Let yourself feel like crap. As I say that right now, I also feel like the mic volume is too loud and it's annoying me. But I'm gonna let it happen because I don't give a shit about that. I want you to hear the message. Forget the messenger. The message is more important than the messenger. It's okay to feel like crap. Give yourself a couple of days, a couple of hours, whatever, to just grieve, mourn, be pissed off. And of course, we don't want to stay there. Liz Gilbert says, if you find yourself at the bottom of a well, don't furnish it. I really like that reminder.

So this isn't me saying, please just feel bad all the time, but I'm saying feel bad a little bit of the time. Like there's a lot of this, like, no, all the self-care. God, I feel great, all this pressure to always grow and evolve. Okay, yes, I'm a coach. You know I'm all about that. Grow, evolve. But part of growth and evolution is having the courage to just feel bad and admit it. You don't gotta say you're fine all the time. You also don't have to go around complaining and spilling all your shit onto everybody else, right? We all as human beings, I believe, need to

take care of our own selves enough to where we are mindful of, you know, others' boundaries, of our own boundaries, right? There's a lot here. The main message, though, is if you could be okay, even when you're not okay, everything becomes okay. So if you find yourself having a thought like I did that night, with oh my god, I'm gonna lose my hand, the first step is pause. Okay, and notice that's a thought. Just that. As soon as you become aware that it is a thought, you are no longer being dragged out by the wave. You are observing a very crappy, scary wave, but you are

not in it, you are observing it. That is what Michael Singer talks a lot about in the Untethered Soul. I've brought up that book a lot in other episodes. Love that book. Check it out. If I remember, I'll link it. I'm gonna actually make a note for myself right now. Link Untethered Soul. Link, the body keeps the score. Yeah, I'ma do it. I'm also gonna link this incredible new tool that I've been working with called Solex, which maybe I'll talk about a little bit later. Stay, stay till the end if you want to hear about the most magical, incredible, literal piece of magic, but science that

I have discovered that I am now using with my clients. That is the most incredible frequency healing device technology that I feel like I've waited lifetimes to discover, and that has already created miracles in the health of me, those that I love. Um, but get back to this tool. So, first step, again, is you catch yourself in a thought. And how do you know you're having a kind of crappy experience of like a painful uh thought? You can feel it in your body. Our body tells us when we're having thoughts that are crappy, that are fear-based or anxiety-based, we feel it. Notice your body, like for

me, when I was having that thought about, oh my God, I'm gonna lose my hand, I was literally shaking. My heart was beating, I was probably sweating, my adrenals were just like on overdrive. You know when you're not feeling good. And what is your instinct to try to feel better? Okay, now before though, you do the thing to, oh, let me just have some wine, or let me smoke that joint, or let me call a friend. Before that, my invitation is to just take a couple of minutes and just breathe and just even notice that thought. Okay, and label it. That's a thought. That's a thought,

that's not real. It feels real. Feelings are not facts, they're valid, but they're not real. They're just feelings come and go, thoughts come and go, but we think they're the truth, and that's what gets us in trouble. As soon as I caught, oh, I'm not actually losing my hand. That's just my mind making up a scary story about me losing my hand. Nope, just a thought. And then what's really happening right now? Bring yourself back to the moment. Okay, well, what was really happening for me was I was sitting in a chair and I was tired and I was in a lot of pain, and I

was staring at my hand that happened to be inflamed. Okay.

Then you could do this thing that I've done with clients as well. This is a little bit like next level, but sure, I'm gonna say it. You could follow that trail into like, you know, nothing is ever as bad as our mind invents, I found. So I kind of sometimes do the thing where I'm okay, okay. Well, let me just follow the the train all the way to that station of the worst thing ever. Okay, so then if my finger gets inflamed and then I lose my finger, then what happens? Okay, well, then I'm gonna have a hand without my five fingers, then I'll have four

fingers. Okay, and then what happens? And then I'm gonna have to learn how to use my hand with four fingers instead of five. Okay, and then what happens? And then I'm just gonna use my hand with four fingers. It's like sometimes when you follow that thread, you realize, oh, okay, that worst case scenario, which is not even real, by the way, is not even that bad. So I actually guide people through this as a coach where we'll go to the worst case scenario, but I'll kind of hold their hand through it because it can feel really scary. It's not scary for me, but it's usually helpful

to have someone with you go into that place, right? That's I want to acknowledge that. But I'm saying you could also do that with yourself. But the other thing you could do is just notice it's a fucking thought. Just that. Oh, that's a thought, that's not real. Hey, what's another thought? Oh, get present. Oh, there's a curtain right there. Oh, there's my dog. Oh, I can breathe. Start calling out things in your environment that you see. That's a really good tool for like anxiety, panic attacks, blue curtain, white crystal, bee, computer screen, carpet, chair, literally. That is a very helpful way to ground yourself. This is

another tool. If you find yourself spinning out about something, to come back to the moment, first notice it. Say that's a thought. Then if you want to follow the train to the, well, what's the worst case scenario? You could do that, but sometimes if you're really spinning out, you might not want to do that. You might just want to get real clear on, okay, cool. Here I am, wooden table, dark chair, here's my environment. I just look, I really want to encourage you to try to help yourself before you reach for something else. I have something called a compassion pill that I developed that I'm gonna

be bringing to the world soon. I did it when I was at Stanford Medical School studying compassion. The idea of it is before you pop that Xanax, you take this little vitamin and you guide yourself through a couple of minute meditation. That was the idea for it. And it's not because I'm saying all medicine is bad, although I am saying most medicine is bad. Yeah. I I am uh actually, I have a big fucking problem with the healthcare system in this country, and I'm gonna be part of dismantling it at some point. But for now, I'm just gonna say if the meds are helping, take them,

and you are your greatest medicine. So even in conjunction with any medication that you're taking, which is helping you, if you believe it's helping you, keep doing it. Again, I'm not technically a doctor, but I can tell you that I have gone to a few medical schools at the University of Life, and I have gotten myself off of every single medication that I have ever been on, ever. And I have healed myself with light, water, herbs, and faith. Literally, I brought my legs back. I was a medical miracle, and then I got this new incredible technology in my hands, which is quantum frequency healing. And it

feels like all the lifetimes that I have lived brought me to this one where I will be sharing more of this in the world. I'm not gonna go into it in this episode, but I am gonna just link a video of what it is. If you happen to have made it this far and want to uh learn a little bit more about it, I'll put a link to where you can get it for yourself and uh learn more about it. I'll do another one on this soon, but I needed to put something out tonight because I know I feel I am a shaman, I am a

mystic, I am an empath, I feel the world, the collective. It is wild out there. And so if you're feeling off and bad, sure, do the yoga, drink the green juice, do your prayer, do all the things to make yourself feel better, but also honor yourself enough to give that pain, to give that sadness, that anger, that anxiety, that frustration, that depression. Give it some time too so that it feels seen and loved. It is a part of you that's crying out for help. And it's okay to not be okay all the time. Just even saying that to yourself. It's okay that I'm not okay. I

don't gotta be okay all the time. It's a lot of pressure, especially for those of you out there who might be parents or just leading people or just human freaking beings, just being alive right now sometimes for a sensitive being. Holy shit. It's a lot. So give yourself a break. It's okay not to be okay. And I find as soon as we can embrace that darkness, but darkness not bad, it's just the parts of ourselves that we haven't brought yet to the light, they seem to not need as much of our attention. It's like as long as you just or as soon as you just let

yourself be kind of sad or mad, it's like it dissolves a bit. It's like that really annoying kind of person that's trying to get your attention. If you just give them a little bit of it, they'll usually shut, shut up. I don't know if that's the right metaphor, but you can also be like, yo, yo, you can contribute, but you don't get to run the conversation all night, right? But like listen to that part of you just a little bit, maybe a little container. So maybe that's your homework. Is that give yourself five minutes to just feel like crap, but like fully feel it. You know

what I'm saying? Like give yourself five or give yourself 15, go crazy, you know? Give yourself a day, whatever. I say having a day here and there where you just feel off, where you feel crappy is the healthiest thing you could do in this world. Because then it's like, okay, now I could get back to feeling better and being of the light and being inspired and all that. And you know, I'm I'm a coach, my name means radiant light. I am never gonna say we should sit in the dark forever. But as someone who's sat in the dark and discovered so much beauty and resilience and

fierce compassion and love there, I just really encourage you to not bypass something that will actually connect you to your very real and authentic self. And there is nothing more beautiful than knowing yourself. Love yourself enough to know your full self, the light, the dark, and all of it, the kaleidoscope of your humanity, all deserves to be seen, to be felt, to be known. And I really hope that this encourages you to just sit a little bit more with those parts of yourself that you've been running away from. They deserve your love too. And you don't have to stay there forever. You don't have to furnish

the well at the bottom, but you can visit it gently without making it wrong, without making it bad. Okay. Okay, well, 44 minutes exactly on the dot right there. I'll add some music though. We'll stitch that in. Music is medicine. Solex, this technology that I'll be talking more about, is also connected to music healing. It's very exciting. I'm very grateful to you for listening. Thank you so much for taking the time to spend it with me. And I'll see you next time. Bye. Oh, that was cool. That was like 44, 22, now 27. Okay, bye.